μ’sic Forever♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪ – Nanjolno’s Blog Post (2015-12-06)

A day after it was announced that Love Live! µ’s is to hold their final live, Nanjou Yoshino posted this blog post.

It has been announced!µ’s final live.
“Love Live! μ’s Final LoveLive!~μ’sic Forever♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪~”

This year, when I heard that we’ll be doing our final live
I thought that, no matter what happens, I’d perform for our final stage.

When I heard that, the condition of my knees weren’t that well, I kept on fooling myself, or something.
I started using, wrapping my legs with the hospital prescribed supporter, with all my might! Although it may have felt that way, I’ll rest my knees well, all in preparation for the final live.

Well, with the meniscal tear or something… We went to a bigger hospital to consult about the surgery…
The continuation is in my previous blog laughs (not laughing

And then after that, I started to lessen my movement during my solo and fripSide activities, more like
It was really like that in the past too, so thankfully I was able to continue them.
Then in fripSide lives, I started to move less, cutting it down little by little
they gave their support to lessen the burden I do to my knees.

As expected, if it’s not a sing-only µ’s stage, I can’t participate in it and it kept on increasing.
During fan meetings, I can only appear during the talk parts.

During that time, meniscal tear-san was in really bad shape, just by being a little excited, moving it was extremely scary… ^^;
But in the Nagoya Fanmeeting, there were only 3 members appearing,
and it was a solo song and no formation setlist… I was able to go up on stage and perform. I was really happy!

I aim to be able to perform in the final live,
To be able to perform as 9 people in the final live, this does not change.

There were more 9-person stages, since they were dance songs, I couldn’t participate in them
so their activities as just 8 kept on increasing. It was definitely a frustrating feeling.
I’m sure everyone felt the same, definitely the members too, I felt the same as well.
But I will endure this until I can reconnect with the final live… That feeling weighed on me.
I LINE’d the members, consulting them every night.

Anyway, I thought that Love Live! and µ’s’ home is a solo live,
that way, I can connect with everyone, I thought that it was a place where we all grow,
and upon return, I know that everyone would like me to appear properly. I feel the same too, and I’m sure, Eri does too..

During solo and fripSide lives, every after songs, everyone changes the color of their penlight, don’t they?
During that time, I saw a lot of different colors.
That connects me to what I see during a µ’s live,
I, for some reason, the Eri that’s inside my heart, although I’m not very sure,
my heart quivers, or something similar to the feeling… it has become an emotion that I can’t explain.

I wish to confidently see that kind of scenery from the stage.

Somehow, being a burden, to the people watching, to Eri, I tried to find the boundary to not make them feel sad anymore,
there were also a lot of times when I felt helpless.
Even though you may not see it on the surface,
I won’t forget about everyone, I won’t just disregard everyone to nothing.
Please be at ease, I reaaalllyyyy  think about all of you a looot! (laugh)

But, really, I’ve made a lot of Eri fan sad,
Me too, I am frustrated and in pain.

Although it’s not a “My knee has been healed back to perfect condition. It has healed beautifully!”
Right now, in this situation, It felt like I’m trying to find a timing to overdo it.
I, when I heard that it will be the final live, I’ve decided that I will aim for it,
and finally, the details and the place has been decided, (it’s not like I wasn’t able to report about my knee~
Somehow, no matter what, I will be there on this day..!!

Even though it’s final,
even though µ’s is ending, µ’s will never disappear from our memories.
Love Live! has become so big, sometimes it feels like it has gone very far, and then the loneliness starts to creep in,
Ever since the 1st Live, the place where I met everyone face-to-face,
because this work has connected me everyone, having fun together, that feeling will never change.

Me too, in order yell “I’m back!!” I will keep on doing my best as always.

Let’s all do our very best to have fun as we prepare for the final live!
And then when that time comes, we can all say, “This moment is the greatest!”

Source: 今日も良い天気だよ Nanjou Yoshino’s Official Blog

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A Notice – Nanjolno’s Blog Post (2015-08-31)

With her agency posting a notice, Nanchan has broken her silence about her true status as well.

It’s been a while. It’s me.

This is about my knee.

Although personally, I really don’t want to disclose it.
Everyone has been worried as to why I won’t take the stage, in order to not let meaningless rumors float, I’d like to talk about the situation now.

The diagnoses is “Partially dislocated kneecap, torn meniscus.” (kneecap subluxation, meniscular tear) Well to put it simply, my kneecap won’t fit and in turn it has damaged my meniscus. This is the status.

A while ago, my knee hurt and I went to the hospital and they told me that my meniscus is damaged. From there, they gave me a supporter, and I’ve started using painkillers and they I asked when I can schedule a surgery.

And then when I went back, they told me to go to a bigger hospital, then from there on, we figured out the source of the damaged meniscus.

The origin is the “partially dislocated kneecap.”
And the most troublesome is that… It’s hereditary. Basically, I was born with it.

I could spend my daily life and do other things normally (now that I think about it again, there were times when it hurt so much…) I thought that my own knee is a bit weird, in a way.
Without knowing it, the situation continued to get worse.

In short, I was born with it, that is the situation.
With that, by the continuous jumping and dancing, and twisting the knee, the kneecap and the meniscus bump into each other, and that’s where the pain starts from.
Upon checking the X-ray the bones have been getting damaged as well.

With that, since I’m born with this. So even if I get a surgery, it won’t completely heal.

For it to not happen again… I need to make changes to the things I do now. I can only do things where my knee won’t be disturbed. It will take a lot of time and effort, basically I need to build up muscle on my waist and ankles, in order to support my knees.

In order for my knees to not get damaged, and for it to not hurt again, I started consulting in a rehabilitation center for a training that I can do. It’s starting to really feel like a real rehabilitation.

I’ve told various places that are related to my job, regarding this.
To everyone who are worried, I’m sorry for all the trouble that I’ve caused.
Especially to NBC-san who assisted me in what to do for the staging and the costume makers as well. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you, you are all very kind…

That’s all I have to say.
With that said, it isn’t something self-healing can cure.

If I keep on pushing myself too hard, it will get worse and the pain will affect my daily life, in the future.

I had to give up stages where I wanted to go on or can’t move as much as I want and anything else, but I will bear all these pain and frustrastions. I am currently in the middle of doing my best to come back.

Soon I will meet everyone in a hall again, since I have a live performance. With there, I want everyone and myself to have fun together. I will do my best everyday.

Little by little, I’ll be able to move on stage again… When I think about it (Personally, my activities weren’t this extreme back then…) I’ll do my best to go to the hospital regularly, as long as you watch over me, I will be happy.

Although, “I can’t take even one step!” That’s not the kind of situation I’m in, so please don’t worry. Although in lives, I can’t run around, and jump if I were to participate in one.

Although I can’t participate in a few ones, if I can participate in one, I will give my all, so please come see me.

My solo live and the fS tour are starting soon as well and I’m looking forward to them.

At any rate, my voice is, without a doubt, in perfect condition.

Well then, that’s it for the situation report.
Let’s meet again~

Source: 今日も良い天気だよ Nanjou Yoshino’s Official Blog

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